Can't seem to find the words...

Well firstly i need to say is why did I loose 2 followers? Am I that non-worthy enough to follow? Or did they just delete their google account?

Anyways, back to what I was talking about. Well I may seem very out-going and stuff online, but in real life you can say I am one of those total dorks. I am quite shy, when I speak no one really hears me. And boys...well they seem to look right through me.
You should have known how many times I wish that I could talk to people. And not be shy, but I guess its not just in my nature. I would really like to build up the confidence.

I really have no clue why I am posting this, but I guess I just need advice.

-Kami